Excerpt from ‘Scarecrow’
I Will Come Back For You
When I leave (it’s not a question of if), please know that I will always think of you.
It will break your heart and make you cry, the pain that you may go through.
Your dreams will be torture and your days will be long as you watch the clock tick away.
Your thoughts of us will wax and wane and it will trouble your heart that I couldn’t stay.
You’ll ease yourself with the knowledge that I still have things left to do.
You’ll wonder as the time drifts by when my thoughts will one day bring me back to you.
You’ll likely wish those thoughts would pierce my heart when you see the knives I used to use.
You’ll likely curse the words I’ve written and damn the day you became ‘my muse’.
Sudden and swift I’ll leave without warning, I will be there and then I’ll be gone.
You should know now that if indeed I do have my way you would be my last one.
The one I’ve come to admire as a friend and love with all the heart I have left.
The last one here that I’ve fully let in and have chosen to share all my feelings with.
The hurt and the pain that you’ve watched me endure, you know much of this is my ‘driving force’.
You’ve seen my heart shatter time over again; you’ve witnessed things happen you could not endorse.
This likely is the pain you will feel; it’s loneliness I do not wish to put you through.
However, my ‘Scarecrow’, my daydream love, please know that I will come back for you.